Between this year and last year December has proven to ruin an otherwise good run of an entire year. It wasn't a terrible year to be honest. I got a lot of money, switched jobs to something better, and it seemed like my dad was going to be in a physically better place before being taken to somewhere not here... All of that in December.
The drama of having to deal with that won't be over yet. I'm just getting over a terrible stomach illness that might've been only 24 hours we'll see. And for a moment it felt like I could get both my job and my art going at the same time without hassle. But I wouldn't doubt that I'll be needing to hunt for another job soon and some other family drama will hit me...
That's the way these things go. Good all year until it's my birth month. Couldn't these terrible things happen in August ... that's a terrible month?
I just want to live my own life some day. I'm a greedy person, but these are the things I would like.